a.walk.to.remember

2007-08-10T02:46:00.000+08:00

"you're a smart girl."

are you just a step further than everyone else?

or is it just difficult to find people on the same wavelength?

-a movie i'd love to enjoy with you.
; moments i'd love to enjoy with you.

becoming the complicated adult aren't you.

2007-06-21T08:52:00.000+08:00

Short Notice

A short notice for everyone.

I will no longer be updating my blog.

The blog is still here for my own convenience reaching other people's blog.

I will still drop by my blog, so if you have anything to tell me,

drop me a tag. =)

Thank you for the support!

* I may still update, but it might be very rare.

2007-04-15T14:53:00.000+08:00

We're planning something.

no telling yet.

coz' I don't even know whether we'll go through with it yet.

one picture will suffice.

2007-02-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

CNY is coming.

how many of you guys dread cny.

i'm beginning to not look forward to it.

you just feel like running again.

maybe because i'm getting older,

and the fact that i can't really communicate with the family.

I read the papers today,

and there was an article written by Sumiko Tan.
(I love reading her articles btw.)

"So close, yet so far"

She wrote:

"I like my relatives - it's just that I don't know what to talk about when we meet during the Chinese New Year"

I can really relate to her feelings.

Like you're really glad that the family can come together as a whole once a year finally,

but the thing is,

what do you talk about?

"So do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

where are you studying?

what are you going to do after ITE?
(aka, what are you gonna do with your damn life.)

when are you getting married??"

always these few awkward questions,

and they may just come out with these questions to fill up the silence.

but how much do you really know them?

you may know each others family secrets,

and have to pretend you don't know and act normal.

"so how many of us are actually comfortable with our families.

many of us are closer to our friends and colleagues than any of our cousins."

my family members are nice,

don't get me wrong.

they are always ready to help.

but it always gets awkward because you're at a loss of what to say when you meet.

"Still - and this is a big still - we do it, year after year,

not because we really like it,

but because this is what families do.

Because, in the end,

blood is really thicker than water.

I can criticise my relatives and they me,

but woe betide strangers who do it -

and that is perhaps what links us cousins,

aunts and uncles together,

forever.

Have a happy Chinese New Year."

--

I'm just glad that I'm finally not alone when I feel like that about my family.

2007-02-03T11:36:00.000+08:00

Teddy Geiger - For You I Will

A couple of pictures taken in SC yesterday morning.

during morning briefing..

hmm.. it felt so weird taking pictures in SC,
like why would of all people,
me.
be the one taking pictures?

but i know that i'll really miss little moments like this,

or maybe it's really time for me to break out of my shell in SC?
oh well.

the present and upcoming excos!

and an extra.

HAHA.

--

you may be wondering why i'm making this graduation thing such a big deal.

well.

I've been through too many departions.

and have regretted a few for not cherishing them enough.

it's not just the departing,

it's the little moments everyday.

and I don't want to make such a mistake again.

I want to cherish every moment I can.

It's the most I can make out of my memories.

--

HAHA.

like what they say,
a picture speaks a thousand words.

so i prefer to let these pictures retain their natural state.

do you understand the little moments i cherish so much now?

2007-02-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

Last Friday morning,

on the way to school for SC.

I knew that I'd really miss the school when I graduate,

and took a couple of pictures.

I'd really miss walking here every morning.

We went to a mini-concert organised by Elaine and friends at Kovan on Friday night.

The pictures are kinda blur due to the lightings.

Musical Paradise at Kovan CC.

The singer of "I Not Stupid 1" theme song.
He's only 21, and has already registered his marriage.

makes you wanna get married soon too.
like if you marry young,
and give birth earlier,

you'd still have energy to enjoy life when your kids grow up.

hmm.. I guess it depends on individuals.

the 2nd performance of the night,

very cool band.

--

then it was off to slack..

That's Poh Li and Mr. Ronald McDonald.

They've made such great friends within a short while.

journey home..

me, jolyn, and elaine in the reflection of the glass ahead.
jun hong and poh li in front.

--

tata!

2007-01-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

AOA Table CA down,

Chinese Economy Test down,

Marketing CA down.

just less than 7 weeks to go before graduation.

--

was just thinking of loading a couple of pics from when I started out in ITE til now..

it has been really really fast.

2 years.. gone.

us in our red-white-red-white form..

a very hilarious us at MOS Burger. (still with kenrick then.)

and these was all before I became a councillor.

and thinking back,

a lot has happened over the past 2 years.

and these stuff has brought ISF much closer together.

will hope to take a whole lot of photos at Graduation Night on Feb 9.

Glam ourselves up on that day!

It has been a great 2 years spent with ISF.

Wishing the classmates all the best after graduation.

2007-01-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

i wanna update the blog.

but i'm friggin' lazy to post the pics.

they take forever.

--

well,

school's reopening tmr.

bet half my class is involved in the orientation.

gonna be a very boring 2 days.

anyway,

i bought chocolates from Beijing for ISF.

so if any one of you reading my blog belongs to ISF,

and is planning not to attend school tmr.

no chocolates for you.

--

have to be in school by 7.15 am tmr.

and class starts at 12 noon.

let's all jump for joy!

sigh.

--

Happy Belated Birthday Hexing & Rui Huang !!

the gang.

mahjong and cards!

ying jia couldn't join..
let's meet up soon again!

--mass communication..

2007-01-04T15:36:00.000+08:00

k.

will upload the pics taken in Beijing today.

i know it'll take alot of time.

so pardon me if i get lazy and don't put captions for the pictures.

start blogging at 3.40 PM.

before we left, at Changi Airport.

Bye bye Singapore !!

Pardon my messy hair after just waking up.

Our very first dinner in Beijing!
with cute room-mate Fiza and friend Juz.

from here, you can predict how cold it is.
look how fat i am under the layers of clothes!

look how squeezed we were on the van to school!
packed like a can of sardines,

on the way to school..

Beijing Finance and Economic School..

Welcome on our very first day of school!

Our classroom for the next 2 weeks.

their classrooms.. (taken without them knowing.. shh!)

Beijing, China at night..

take a look at what they have too..

It's a whole underground shopping plaza!

just us messing around.

anyway,
look what i caught on tv!

HAHA.
it's in chinese though. kinda sucky.

more of stupid us..

me and kamilah.

Tian An Men Square.
and the very fake dead body of Mao Zhe Dong.
=X

no photos were allowed inside.
so yea.

they're afraid that we'll find out after Mao Zhe Dong's fake wax body melts with the flash from our cameras?
hmm..

sorry, we're supposed to respect him. =X

k.

shall stop for today.

real tired already..

time- 5:01 PM

2006-12-19T12:33:00.000+08:00

i'm in friggin' cold Beijing now,

with very limited time everyday with the computer.

right now,

i'm studying in Beijing Finance School.

it's all really different up here.

(my fingers are really freezing right now as i type.)

everything is in chinese,

almost everything.

this batch i'm with has more malays than chinese,

and the chinese are urgently needed for translation.

and you know how much i suck at chinese,

yea.

i was asked to help them with the dinner menu once,

and i could only come out with 'la mian' and fried rice.

it's friggin' pathetic.

you really feel so useless at times like this.

damn.

haha.

--

we're wearing at least 5 - 7 layers of clothes everyday we step out of our hostel.

and we still feel cold.

the thing about snow,

think it's not gonna be possible,

it has never snowed in Beijing.

and if it really snows,

it's gonna be a miracle.

you can start going on your knees and thank god.

--

it's real interesting and there's a lot for you to learn,

but it's not as fun as you think it is,

we have to wake up at 7 everyday for school,

ans we're doing accounts all over again.

this time,

it's in chinese,

BORING.

most of the class are simply stoning in class during accounts,

you can already imagine what it's gonna be like when we do chinese economy.

zzz.

(my fingers are really freezing!)

--

took a lot of pictures,

but am not able to upload them at the moment,

i forgot to bring the upload thingy.

haha.

sorry.

--

will be up with projects and presentation all the way.

(and you think we're here for holiday huh.)

so we're also doing lots of work here.

but i climbed the great wall of china already!

i even reached the tallest part of it.

up til now,

i still can't believe i step foot on the Great Wall Of China.

it's one the the world's greatest wonder,

and i can't believe i even touched it.

but it's true,

the slopes are REALLY steep.

and the steps are so TALL.

it was just like climbing some really steep mountain,

we were practically exhausted when we were climbing,

we had to stop and rest in between so many times.

but be reminded,

don't look down unless you have a really strong gut.

the walls by the side are really short at some parts,

and if someone accidentally pushes you a bit,

bye.

--

i have so much to say,

but i got so excited blogging,

that i forgot a whole chunk of it.

damn.

--

i really miss a lot of people back in Singapore,

including just Singapore.

the weather.

the culture.

where you don't need chinese everywhere.

i miss everything back home.

and it's only my 3rd day here.

1 week plus to go.

i gotta hang on there,

and give everyone a big hug once i reach home.

it's just gonna be really nice to be home.

i'm gonna go now,

my fingers are turning into ice soon.

2006-12-13T16:34:00.000+08:00

this will be my last post til i leave to Beijing on Saturday morning.

have been contemplating lately about whether i should stop blogging and shut down my blog.

it gets kinda tiring after a while where you have to make it a point to update your blog regularly.

booking a timeslot with your brothers/snatching the computer away from them just to come online and blog.

yea.

i'll see how it goes.

--

will miss a lot of people during my 2 weeks absence to Beijing.

it's gonna be the holidays soon,

go play!

but make sure to take care.

i want to see everyone in one piece after i come back.

here wishing everyone a
Merry Christmas!

jingle bells~ jingle bells~*

JEYS!

i'm booking you guys on new years eve so we can celebrate the coming of the new year k!

2006-12-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

have started packing sweaters and clothes for the Beijing trip already.

been sneezing a lot because of the amount of dust these clothes have been collecting.

i'm rather sensitive to large amounts of dust.

sucks.

have made a list of what i should bring,

still wondering whether i left anything out.

but i'm real excited.

heard from my friends that it has started snowing in Beijing already.

a white christmas. =)

--

will miss out on the 4A & 4B gathering chalet this December,

and i'm real sad.

occasions where we finally meet up again are always the best.

we update one another on our lives,

and reminisce the good ol' times in secondary school.

haha.

it's the greatest feeling.

2006-12-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

what is it and people dying in their sleep?

what is happening to the world?

you never know if you're ever gonna wake up the next day,

and leave behind all the people whom you love and cherish.

or people who need you.

why is something like that happening anyway?

i can't help but question this.

and to think nobody can understand why or how these people died.

i'm seriously starting to question life.

some people will say this proves we should cherish and make use of every single day we live to see,

but i really find it wrong.

--

my brother and his girlfriend was over at my house today,

they put up the christmas tree and decorations,

i'm starting to miss the white christmas's i used to have in the US.

the feeling of everything,

even though it may be up to minus 20 degrees outside,

there is still so much warmth.

the decorations.

the people.

the love.

the whole thing,

it's really something else.

2006-12-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

went for the Beijing trip briefing today.

and students from Clementi ITE came over too.

it was rather awkward at first,

i went in early,

and sat on the left side of the room of B2-07.

the Bishan students came strolling in one by one,

and sat on the right side of the room.

i just didn't feel like moving,

so i sat there alone.

the Clementi students strolled in and sat on the left side of the room.

- I was wondering why the hell we were separating ourselves so clearly.

Outcome:

me alone with Clementi students,

and Bishan students all on the other side.

(now i wish i had pictures to support my content.)

--

yea.

awkward.

but i made friends easily. =)

now i know the girl who is gonna be bunking with me.

and she's really nice.

i'm real happy and relieved at the same time.

haha.

she also has a really nice guy friend who happened to be seated next to me,

and yea,

the 3 of us are gonna stick to each other through the trip.

i can imagine the 3 of us all crazy through the trip already.

we're having a Christmas party there with the students,

I hope we have a bomb!

2006-12-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

there'll be a briefing on the Beijing trip tmr.

i'm real excited and scared at the same time.

i'm excited because i can't wait to see Beijing,

to see what surprises or disappointments it'll give me.

haha!

and i'm scared because i'll be the only person from my class going,

and it's almost the same as going without a partner.

to go to a stranger country without someone to fall back on is pretty nerve wrecking.

i know a number of them who are going,

but they all have 'partners' from the same class already.

and i simply feel 'extra'.

mrs. heng indirectly asked me the same thing,

like am i not afraid.

i feigned ignorance.

but when i really start thinking,

i am actually really afraid.

--

to all who have read the papers on friday, 1 December.

An article on the front page of the Home section in The Straits Times.

"Tragic Infant Deaths" - "Baby suffocated under granny".

That one's pretty scary,

to think that a four-month old baby girl was 'smothered by her grandmother as she suffered a stroke and fell on the infant she was caring for at home'.

and it was not until '12 hours later, about 8 pm that the baby's parents returned home' and found out.

pretty shocking.

I was about to tell my mother that i wouldn't want to put my baby under my mother's care if such dangerous things would happen,

when i remembered that i was talking to my mother.

yea.

to all who are wondering,

the baby didn't make it.

'all efforts to revive the baby failed and she was pronounced dead at 9.10 pm.'

but don't worry,

the grandmother survived.

2006-12-01T13:27:00.000+08:00

just finished my mock interview for CDP.

and have 2 more hours with sickening-amy.

bleh.

--

it's as if SC is falling apart.

and i'm getting real sick of it.

wanna graduate and get the hell out.

--

a lot of questions concerning my future are starting to surround me.

and i still have no idea what i want for my future.

the normal;

get married,

have children.

and grow old.

or not;

live freely!

and travel the world.

then meet mr right and settle down.

haha.

riight.

--

whatever.

2006-11-30T17:23:00.000+08:00

I have not been feeling well for the past couple of days.

it's as if something keeps pulling - in my head.

like a vein or something.

and it seriously hurts.

--

I never know who may be reading my blog,

and so i try to keep a very low profile here.

but sometimes,

you really feel like venting it all out.

like heck care ar!

and I end up hurting someone..

--

like SC,

sometimes i really wanna comment about SC,

but i can't.

i'm supposed to love SC.

and you just feel like screaming.

especially when you have to make it a point to wake up so friggin' damn early just for morning duty when class starts like 2, 3 or even 4 hours later.

mon - start at 12 pm.
tues - start at 11 am.
weds - start at 1 pm.
thurs - start at 10 am.
friday - start at 9 am.

what's the point?!

and please note,

i'm the only SC in my class.

and so i'm always by myself.

seriously.

to go to school,

accomplish the 'oh-so-important' duty,

then rot the rest of the hours in the SC room.

it's seriously wrong.

and just when i'm slacking abit,

these people can come and tell me that i have late-coming problems.

seriously,

can you step in my shoes and understand?

i really don't mind if you exchanged timetables with me.

if not,

shut up.

or go die.

i'm into my last term and i just really hope to concentrate on my studies.

not waste my time getting committed to SC.

i'm just really tired and sick of it.

2006-11-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

shall do abit of rewinding today.

--

friday.

went to Esplanade for dinner at Thai Express with Viknesh.

was great fun.

it was really honorable to have you trust and confide in me.

thanks for the great dinner!

--

saturday.

celebrated Elaine's Birthday!

Happy 18th Birthday DarLing !!

went to Cineleisure's kbox and sang our throat's out.

went to Raffles Place to eat chocolate fondue at Haagen-Dazs!

really delicious.

took neoprints.

went shopping at Bugis and bought a new pair of jeans - finally.

had a birthday surprise for her at Block 8.

and smashed cake in her face!!
(revenge from my birthday.)

--

today.

woke up early in the morning and had so much planned up.

got kinda lost.

haha.

feed the fish,

water the plants,

throw laundry into washing machine,

take the newspaper,

do CDP homework,

marketing project plan,

fold clothes.

and catch the show i follow every sunday.

whew.

--

my family will be coming back tomorrow.

and i just cleared the living room.

shall just leave my messy room alone.

i'm lazy already.

i'm so excited for them to be back.

then i can lead the carefree,

want-to-eat-then-eat-without-worrying kinda life.

and i really miss them.

here praying for them a safe trip back.

2006-11-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

went for the NEA dialogue session with Miss Ellen Lee at Macpherson ITE today.

student leaders from 5 campuses were there:

-Bishan
-Tampines
-Macpherson
-Yishun
-forgot the last one. =X

haha.

was not bad.

we were made to mix around and sit with people from the other campuses.

very interactive on my side,

and made a number of friends.

i dunno about the others.

--

I found myself very adaptive suddenly,

i thought that i would be missing my family very badly,

and will be thinking of them

feeling very sad.

don't be wrong,

i do miss them.

i just found myself able to change and adapt to the whole situation very easily.

i don't know whether it's coz i've been busy with stuff,

but i don't feel as lost as i felt in the start anymore.

it's as if i've been subconsciously asking myself to keep moving and do the next thing.

but i feel proud of myself to be able to do it so easily.

you go girl!

=))

2006-11-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank everyone who made the effort,
or remembered my birthday today.

A big Thank You!

namely:
(not according to order.)

>Family
>Mohandas - for the spongebob boxers.
>J2EYS - for everything. i love you guys so much!
>Suiyan
>Shuo Ke
>Ting Ha
>Shi Ting
>Kai Ying
>ISF
>Jen Yin
>Mahdi
>Rui Huang
>Jun Hong
>Poh Li
>Rachel Sim
>Jerry
>Jeffrey
>Alex
>Viknesh
>Jia Ying
>Madeline
>Hao Long
>Ya Mei
>Ivan
>LC
-and their group of friends

and many more..

i really really enjoyed today.

thank you so much,

it really is life-fulfilling to know i have so many great friends around me.

a big thank you once again.

THANK YOU !!

2006-11-23T00:14:00.000+08:00

Ok firstly,

I would like to apologize to the BL's for a stupid comment i made on friday,

November 17,

about SC's theme being better than the BL's.

I was seriously just kidding,

i didn't expect to hurt anyone.

Since the SC and BL has always been at loggerheads,

i thought i could just add in a small comment to let people know how much we hate each other.

So yea,

a big apology from me to Rina, Kelly, the organizers of BL's grad night and the whole of BL.

--

Til now,

i haven't seen the SC complain about the BL as a whole,

i don't know anything about the complaining they do.

I can say that i'm not very bonded to SC,

but i believe that the SCs and BLs each have a different way of working,

friction is bound to happen between two CCA's who are so different in every aspect.

As an SC,

it's my job to protect and uphold my council's image.

No matter how much i may hate it at times.

There is truth in shuo ke's writing,

that - i agree to a certain point,

but it is unfair to be commenting on something in your anger.

Especially when it concerns another human being.

I know that a blog is meant for a place to vent anger at times,

but it'd be really wrong for me to sit back and say nothing to what you've wrote.

So i hope that on your side,

you can understand why i'm doing this.

I'm not trying to wedge a gap between you and me,

i just wanna bring my point across.

2006-11-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

SC Graduation Night.

Multi Purpose Hall.

the whole thing started out pretty slow at first,

like giving out certificates to graduating students.

a short video clip,

then the lucky draw,

my side of the hall won all the prizes.

the other side was a pretty sad sight.

reminds me of prom night,

where the people from my table won pretty much most of the prizes.

haha.

well yea,

and then we had a best dressed man and best dressed woman of-the-evening kinda thing.

and they model-ed for the most cheers.

then the dance floor was open.

boogyed.

then it was home bound.

got pretty tired already.

shall post up pics later when i get hold of some.

overall,

it was not bad.

give a round of applause to the organisers.

2006-11-20T20:24:00.000+08:00

shall not tell you guys anymore about the sad life.

rewind abit to NRA, the dance thing at Ngee Ann Poly.

and i shall finally post pictures for the first time.

if there's any mistake, forgive me.

a noobie here.

pictures of the crazy J2EYS in the toilet after we planned to leave earlier.

but of course,

we didn't in the end.

here's one.

another one.

we're simply crazy.

bye now!

2006-11-18T17:41:00.000+08:00

It's the weekend again,

and i'm at a loss of what to do.

don't get me wrong.

I have lots of ideas in mind,

but i haven't really found anyone who can really understand,

as to what/why i wanna do it.

and so i feel that i should cast away those ideas.

it wouldn't really have any meaning if we went ahead with the activity without anyone enjoying the reason behind it.

yea.

--

I decided this weekend that i shall spend it with my family.

be it sitting in front of the tv or getting excited over PS,

just the feeling of being together.

they will be leaving on monday - for a whole week,

for a trip to genting and cameron highlands,

please don't think/tell me that i'll be enjoying the 'freedom' people call it,
coz i won't.
i feel sick to leave and return to an empty home everyday.

i will miss them greatly.

praying for them to have a safe trip there -

and back.

take care of yourselves -

daddy, mommy, jonathan and jeremy.

2006-11-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

Why do you wake up each day?

take some time to check this out.

really something to think about.

--go check out the responses too.

2006-11-17T12:53:00.000+08:00

here in a half empty classroom again.

the bridge leaders have left to prepare for their graduation night tonight,

some have gone to the Student Hub to watch 'Eye 10',

and some have already left the school.

like what the hell is the teacher even doing right?..

she's not even here.

--

the student council's grad night is next tuesday night,

the theme being 'Masquerade'.

so yea,

we're wearing little masks.

so cute right! vomit*

but it's better than BL's theme,

'Starry Starry Night'.

. . .

--

the trip to Beijing has been confirmed,

i will be going.

it'll only last for 2 weeks though,

16th Dec - 30 Dec.

oh well,

it's better than nothing.

--

projects are coming up real fast,

and some people don't give a damn.

making the rest of us waste our precious time on wasted them.

we really need team evaluation.

2006-11-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

Linkin Park - Faint

2006-11-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

haha.

if you haven't noticed.

i do love punk rock.

don't look like the type eh.

i owe it all to a great friend i met in secondary 3.

he sat next to me in class,

and changed a big part of my life.

with punk rock and all the stuff we went through,

and i'm really glad that we're still in contact.

thanks mohandas reddy.

rock on!

--

i've found an old part of me i thought i'd never manage to get back,

and i really missed it.

i'm much more happier than before.

it has got me to look at stuff from different views,

and changed a lot of my thinking.

praying that i'll never lose hold of it again.

2006-11-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

Good Charlotte - The Anthem

an old song i still love.

2006-11-14T19:07:00.000+08:00

how can we attain happiness.

it sounds like smth out of a religion thing.

yea.

i wanted to write something really depressing today,

coz' i haven't been in the best of moods lately.

but i received a testimonial from someone i used to like a lot,

and he was still as humorous.

it kinda brought my mood up a lot.

yea.

before that,

a thought kept rolling in my mind,

why does it seem so difficult for me to be happy and carefree like i used to be,

especially lately.

is it because my expectations are higher now,

and i need more to be happy?

more.

but to think that a simple testimonial like that could brighten my mood up,

i guess not.

maybe it's coz i'm just getting a little sick of the life i'm having now,

that made me feel like running away again.

be it plane, cruise, or whatever,

i just feel like taking off.

guess i just need to bring smth new into my life.

take up music or art lessons.

that i'll love.

2006-11-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

over at jolyn's house at the moment.

will be going to Ngee Ann Poly for the NRA (New Revolution Age) thingy tonight.

will be kinda exciting to watch my friend perform.

think there'll be a pretty big group going over.

it's gonna be fun!

especially with a whole group of your former secondary school friends.

haha.

--

elaine and yingjia is so excited playing the xbox game,

dead or alive - volleyball..??

shall go join in the fun later.

i wanna play crazy taxi.

=DD

jolyn is cooking maggi noodle - curry for me!

the smell from the kitchen is great!

i'm hungry.

food again.

--

having friends around are always a great distraction,

i don't plan to wallow in the other sad part of my life for the rest of tonight.

how delightful.

2006-11-10T13:39:00.000+08:00

Haha.

what lame shit.

but it really is time for me to let go and move on already.

so people.

i'm single!

--

the situation just now in that very cramped room was seriously killing me.

it was just like when we saw mrs. heng for the very first time,

and she wanted to transfer people out of the class,

and it was either we volunteer or she would handpick.

bloody shit.

seriously don't like that feeling.

but the strong front really didn't last long,

i just felt like running back to my friends.

although i know that i shouldn't always stick to my comfort zone,

it was really kinda unbearable.

i really really wanna go for the trip.

but if the odds are against me..

i just hope that the outcome will be a joyful one.

for people who really get chosen for the trip,

have fun.

--

anyway, what right do i have to feel this way.

you know where you stand and your chances at it.

it's just simply making a fool outta yourself.

concentrate on your studies.

2006-11-06T18:18:00.000+08:00

i'm sick.

not feeling well all over.

and i have no idea why i'm still blogging.

just wanna update i guess.

we cleared things up.

and i feel so much more relieved.

although the outcome wasn't what i really wished for.

but yea,

at least i wasn't left hanging nowhere.

and i seriously hate that feeling.

cheers.

2006-11-03T13:32:00.000+08:00

the bridge leaders have left for their camp.

and it's all very cold in class.

we aren't able to reach our normal noise level.

so yea,

boring.

i just wanna chase amy out of our class again.

her teaching really sucks.

she doesn't command the respect a teacher wants.

it's as if she's one of us, a kid.

we need a teacher,

not a friend.

and to think she still manages to squeeze in real-disgusting cute jokes.

we just keep bombarding her in every lesson,

has she got no feelings/emotions at all?

think her punishment for us is to make us listen to her really bad teaching.

it's really bad torture.

--

for me and him to understand what is going on in our hearts and minds.

get a hold of yourself.

2006-11-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

took a trip to macpherson ite today.

with wah en and imran.

a short briefing/rehearsal/preparation for the actual meeting up of the Member of Parliament of Sembawang? - on the 23rd November.

and you wonder why ivan (VP) told us to speak up.

it's going to be a feedback session on National Education, having a sense of belonging in Singapore, and what would be helpful to instill that sense of belonging in students of primary and secondary schools.

now i don't know whether it's ok for me to blog about this.

anyway,

we were informed to be proper in attire,

to always introduce yourself first and your campus before you start talking.

and there'll be people taking down notes of what you've discussed.

it's all very formal.

and very nerve-racking.

we're seated in the front row for goodness sake.

took back a couple of notes,

we're supposed to elaborate on the points we've discussed so far and talk it all out on the actual day.

so yea,

homework.

2006-10-31T20:04:00.000+08:00

perverted uncles in the market.

have you ever been to the market,

like to get dinner or smth.

and you can feel people observing every single inch of your body.

and it's always toe up.

then you turn to see a table of uncles in their 40s - 50s looking/staring at you.

and when they see you turn to see them,

they start smiling.

and it's those friggin' scary perverted smiles.

can you imagine?

and worst if he doesn't have any teeth.

--

or when you go buy food,

and the shop uncle starts flirting with you.

and refuses to return your change.

you just feel like screaming at him to give back your bloody change so you can get the hell outta there.

or when you go buy indian rojak,

the perverted indian man stands so bloody close to you breathing down your neck when you're cornered,

and asks you if you're from Malaysia.

yeah.

so the next time I tell you I hate going to the market for whatever reasons,

you know why.

and it's not because I'm lazy.

--

I feel like backing out from the MasterCard event.

I just really wanna concentrate on my studies this term.

and my Vice-President put me up for another SC commitment on my birthday.

but what can I do about it?

live with it girl.

2006-10-13T19:01:00.000+08:00

after a rather wierd way of meeting my brother's girlfriend in Lot 1 for the first time today with my mother,

I realised that i had pretty high expectatons for any prospective future boyfriends when they first meet my parents:

I'd want him to be able to greet them first,

Then introduce himself sincerely to my parents.
(of course he'd better be a truly sincere person first.)

he doesn't have to be too handsome or anything,

just that maybe he could add a little bit of charm here and there,

you know, just to humour my parents.

he has to be mature!

Then fast and 'man' enough to take any setbacks.
(you know my dad.)

I don't know whether it has anything to do about me being in the 'business' line,

but I'd really want him to be able to carry himself well.

and of course he'd better love me with all he can.

=DD

-I'd better like him too.

2006-10-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

-Beauty of a Woman-

The Beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,

The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,

Because that is the doorway to her heart,

The place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman Is not in a facial mole,

But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.

It is the caring that she lovingly gives,

The passion that she shows.

The beauty of a woman

With passing years - only grows.

2006-10-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

going old school.

watching videos of meteor garden on youtube.

hilarious eh.

i didn't know it would be such a headache to search for episode after episode on the internet.

but i kinda got addicted after the 1st few episodes.

so yea.

and i'm having some kind of communication breakdown with my father.

so i'm not allowed to go out.

as there is simply no room for any form of chit-chat.

unless i can cram the activity after my father leaves, and before he returns.

you get it.

--

i really feel like going back to school again,

at least i had whole much more freedom.

rather than being stuck at home all day,

and that nothing you do can satisfy your father.

maybe he's going through male-menopause.

you think?

2006-10-04T09:35:00.000+08:00

parents were all nagging around me just now.

so i couldn't really blog.

well yea,

parents seem rather disappointed.

i really dunno.

but my mother seems to love to listen to other people's views and follow them.

she talked to this ITE lecturer from another campus and came home nagging at me about having to have a GPA of 3.7 and above to be safe.

like wad the bloody hell?

3.7?!

she thinks i'm a nerd who burns my books and drinks them?

or that i have a genius brain that sucks in every single fact in my brain.

i'm just really really frustrated at her at the moment.

like why can't you just be supportive of me ONCE?

you've never been supportive of me ever.

since primary school, secondary school, and now ITE.

you keep telling me how disappointed we kids are.

i just need you to be able to hold me into your arms.

and tell me smth like " you've done your best already, and i'm proud of you. "

why don't i ever hear you say something like that?

only stuff like " you have to do well ar. if you don't, you're finished. you're hopeless. "

to think you hear you own mother telling you you're hopeless.

in the exact words.

when your own parents reject you,

what hope is there left for me to look toward.

2006-10-04T09:22:00.000+08:00

k.

i got B's for both Office Admin and Tourism.

with a GPA of 3.347.

shall wait for whatever further instructions from teachers.

don't really have much comment for my results at the moment.

wish the rest of y'll good luck..!

2006-10-04T08:42:00.000+08:00

this is my 100th post.

whoopee~?

less than a half hour til our results are out.

have been tossing and turning all night,

must be too stressed.

so decided to just wake up and blog.

getting myself prepared for the worst.

so even if the results turn out okay,

i'll be happy and relieved enough.

been having a couple of open options other than the road down poly.

shall think hard about it.

you know,

maybe i don't have to take the poly path afterall.

God Bless..!

2006-09-29T12:41:00.000+08:00

mother and relatives stressing about my citizenship.

like more stressed than me lah.

then all my relatives are starting to ask me what citizenship i wanna go for,

and whether I'll go stay there myself or with my family.

and my future career.

firstly,

the Oath of Renunciation, Allegiance & Loyalty for whichever country will only be needed to be done at the age of 21.

so Relax.

i'm sure i'll be more than confirmed and mature by that age towards the citizenship i wanna choose.

and i'm still studying.

can you let me take my life slowly.

i'm already stressing about the next step i'm gonna take after ITE.

and you're stressing me about my future career.

i know that i am a very fortunate person to be able to stress about these,

and that i should have an aim in my future,

but right now,

i just wanna take one step at a time.

let everything go with the flow.

i hate for my life to be planned out,

i wanna to be able to make my own free decisions.

can you start to trust me with my own decisions?

i'll bear whatever consequences for my decisions and actions,

isn't that a part of growing up?

2006-09-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

into my holidays and feeling very broke.

haha.

rotting my butt off with korean dramas.

and hanging out with J2EYS, shuoke, and other friends.

the amount of activities we do to occupy our time.

very fun.

but sometimes you just really hope to be able to go on an outing where you don't have to spend so much at times,

and still have loads of fun!

but yea,

kinda difficult in S'pore.

i still wanna go kite-flying,

and watching aeroplanes by the Changi beach.

not yet fulfilled,

but i hope very soon.

haha.

anyway,

it's the holidays!

and it's time to keep up the contact with old friends again.

so Go!

it's always heartwarming to be able to recieve a call from an old friend who you thought forgot you existed anymore.

don't wait to be the one to recieve the call,

go make the call yourself!

trust me.

It's definitely worth it.

2006-09-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

Tourism Paper was not bad.

Office Admin paper, ok lah.

but still not rather talk about it.

just wanna pass and make it to a course i'll love,

but if there's another better path..

please please.

--

shall not tell you my plans for this holiday,

later i jinx it again.

so yea,

secret people.

--

one more term til we graduate people!

hang on there.

we're reaching the finishing line soon!

2006-09-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

still feeling very honored to be one of the few links in a friend's blog.

=)

--

exams are on the 11th and 13th Sept.

have been studying hard for the past 2 days.

haven't felt quite like this in awhile already.

hopefully this motivation will last til my exams are over.

still really really worried about my results for my poly entry.

i'm aiming for Ngee Ann Poly's Business Studies.

I have heard that it's rather difficult to make it to Ngee Ann,

But i'll work hard!

--

i am somehow wishing that my father's appeal for a last trip to US can go through.

i feel like taking one more break from a couple of things.

there are things i know i won't wish to let go,

but if i had the choice,

i'd go for one more trip there.

just to collect and/or let go a couple of stuff.

i felt that i somehow wasted my last trip over there.

i was always feeling sad because my friends and family were all here.

and missed out everything in front of me.

so yea.

some ppl will say that i'm running away.

i guess you could look at it that way in one perspective,

but i hope that i can get this one more chance to welcome this experience.

not with the many doubts,

and somehow blinded,

when i am able to get this chance to experience something so wonderful.

there will always be 2 sides to everything,

but at least i will know how to enjoy it first.

2006-09-01T10:34:00.000+08:00

teacher's day is over!

whew~

was so totally exhausted from the whole thing.

it rained on the night we were supposed to finish and put up all deco.

that really made my day.

so i stayed til about 9 in school.

just running about,

thinking about whether we should just start preparing for rainy whether.

real exhausting.

went home to continue working on a couple of final touches.

went to bed at around 2.

Then had to wake up at 6,

coz' we had to be in school by 7.

my eyes couldn't even open in the morning.

continued running about in school in the morning.

from the SC room to the hall.

i guess although our weeks of planning were destroyed,

it still turned out okay.

but i'm just really glad that it's over.

everyone did their job well,

and put in a great amount of effort.

especially the people who stayed overnight in school.

big thanks to all!!

--

well people.

due to certain lame reasons,

my handphone has been confiscated by my father.

so yea.

any communication,

please call my home.

thank you.

--

exams are approaching soon people!

start studying!

2006-08-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

Moulin Rouge - Come What May

Yes!

teacher's day is going to over soon!

31 August.

I shall then start throwing all my responsibilities and commitments away.

HAHA.

you have no idea how relieved i'm gonna be.

--

ok.

the tattoo thing i got from little india is really starting to annoy me.

i think i'm the type of person who will never get a real tattoo,

just a small henna paint on my hand and it's starting to gross me out.

kinda like not wanting to look/care for my right hand anymore, for the next 2 weeks.

poor limb.

--

plans for cameron and genting highlands are on the way.

think the dates are from 20th November - 27 November.

but don't ever think of not having to celebrate my birthday!

22nd November.

it will just have to be held earlier.

=X

--

feeling pretty low these days. turning towards extra credit? or not. will i ever be able to do it.

what are you guys doing. isn't it break time already. are you guys even busy in your break time. why is there no contact whatsoever. is there no importance anymore.

2006-08-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

how can a so-called family be so fake.

how is it we can be such backstabbers and still tell people we're a family.

how is it no one is trying to fix this problem before trying to image ourselves as a big happy family,

and then pretend to so warmly invite new people to the rundown/trashy/shitty/so-absolutely-not-the-way-they-present-us-to-be family.

why is it 'family members' i talk to can tell me how much they hate the family coz' it's so fake,

and still be so fake themselves.

or is it because of a few 'family members' that force the rest of the family to be fake themselves,

just to protect themselves.

--

i seriously don't feel like figuring it out anymore.

i'd like to be selfish for once and protect myself too.

let's all be people who fake ourselves like hell.

i just wanna graduate and leave.

2006-08-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

i'd like to really apologise to durga for yesterday's incident.

it was really irresponsible of me to not be there in the project work when i was a part of the group.

i know that i may be too 'care-free' at times,

and that characteristic in me sucks.

i'd still really like to say sorry to shuo ke as she has always been reminding me to change that bad habit in me,

but i've failed her time and time again.

i really don't know how to make up to you guys.

and i know that i might make the same mistake in the future again,

and i'd need y'll to remind me again.

but i'll try,

i want to thank you for putting so much patience in me.

thank you again.

2006-08-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

after a series of complaints from a couple of friends,

i shall finally update my blog.

----

the projects committee in SC has been rather busy lately,

with us as the organizing committee for teacher's day.

and meetings are piled up everyday.

holding meetings with the C&E committee for deco,

and meetings with projects committee for gifts, arrangements, budget, blah..

all hoping that it'll be a big surprise for the teachers,

and of course praying real hard that nothing goes wrong.

******

exams are approaching soon,

so i have to go on strong.

there will always be times where you feel like giving up and letting everything go,

but isn't that the same as being a failure?

responsibilities and commitment are the 2 keys that's holding onto me,

and i shall not let anyone down.

******

my only wish now is to be able to do well as a responsible member in SC,

do well in my grades,

and graduate the hell outta Bishan ITE.

haha.

so til then, i will give my best.

and move along strong.

give me your support people..!

******

how long more do i have to carry these things?

these secrets,

who don't even belong to me in the first place.

how long more do i have to hold on to them for you?

pretending that i dunno shit all the time.

when will it stop.

when will you ever let me go.

i don't want to be in the middle anymore!

let me go please.

leaving me some space to breathe at last.

to go back to my carefree days.

i really miss it..

but is this the way i've to walk to grow up?

2006-07-25T18:54:00.000+08:00

10 mins to my korean show.

[rush rush.]

today angie lee was trying real hard to bring the blogging thing across to us.

but i guess she failed.

coz' we kept pointing out little meaningless mistakes in her speech/lecture.

guess she was trying to tell us to be more careful when we blog.

but seriously,

we read newspapers too.

you think we don't know?

you think we're so dumb?

*sigh

Mrs. Lee,

you wanna sue me like what you've said because of this entry.

sometimes,

you really think we don't understand, do you?

just because we behave like ignorant brats in your class?

you can just go ahead and tell us to be more careful when we blog,

but please stop there.

don't go on nagging like 'don't be offended, i'm not pinpointing anyone, and blah blah...'.

it'll just be too much.

we may be ITE students,

but we have a brain too.

[P.S. if you ever come across my blog Mrs. Lee, don't really sue me. I'm only trying to bring across my point of view. yea? =) ]

2006-07-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

came across an article in today's Straits Times Urban.

'THE 6-WEEK KILO KNOCKOUT'

it claims that it's possible to lose 5kg fast:

'no crash diets,
no pills,
no liposuction,
All you need is a sensible regimen
and a healthy diet.'

Put together by California Fitness.

maybe I'll go sign up and be a member there.

you think?

2006-07-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

holidays are here!

holidays are here!

as if there is any difference.

just came back from my 2 days 1 night SC camp.

very new and interesting compared to the previous 2 camps.

my camp group, the Tazmanian Devils!!

were very sporty. =D

for our 5 minutes performance,

we did a 2006 FIFA World Cup Remix dance of 'Hips Don't Lie' by Shakira.

using whistles and little tambourines.. like a 'storm' thing.

Plus the dance!

like really dancing!

couldn't believe i had the guts to dance in front of everyone there.

but i know that i really let myself go this camp,

who cares about whether i look nice or not.

(must've been the magic from Shuo Ke's cap.)

but it was great fun!

we got the whole SC to join in the dance. Woo!!

after the performance from every group,

it turned into a 30 mins disco night fever thing around the campfire.

all the SC ppl were boogying their butt off like who-cares. (real steamy.)

something very very memorable.

wanted it to last longer,

but rules are rules.

we had to start washing up and get ready for bed. (come on, say it together, 'aww..')

2nd Day.

had nasi lemak for breakfast.

but i am not a rice person in the morning seriously.

so only ate about 1/4 of the nasi lemak.

so wasted right.

later my husband sure ugly one. haha.

was still quite early so the organizing committee came up with an idea.

'hide and seek'.

To bring us back to our childhood days, they claimed.

right.

who cares, we have nothing to do anyway. join in the fun.

went to search for someplace good,

but just ended up squatting right outside D1-04.

couldn't find any place good, and i had the burden of 4 juniors on my back.

where was i to go hide?

but surprisingly,

no one seemed to wanna catch us.

we were right there.

just come on to the back, and 'ting!', we're there.

about 10 - 15 mins later,

Ivan FINALLY came to the rescue.

I think we were about to fall asleep already, but we were all tired from the late night boogy and the early wake up call.

not long after, the bus arrived.

so off to Kallang River we went.

for Dragonboating. WooHoo!!

this time, dragonboat was so much more fun.

we got to do the sit-at-the-side and row-the-boat-from-side-to-side thing.

very thrilling!

me and Nana really got our hair wet.

but what's the difference, we had to all jump into the murky waters of Kallang River later.

it was my group and LC's group.

(oh yea. the worst was that i didn't bring extra clothes as i thought it would be as 'safe' as the previous one, but yea, obviously i was wrong.)

so i returned to school still very much drenched.

real yucky feeling. (imagine the murkey waters of the river, who ever knows what lies beneath, or all over.)

feeling real happy that i finally reached school so i could go bathe.

but we were told to clean up the amphitheatre, (my group's job.)

den back to the canteen.

really not feeling very happy by then.

but after lunch we could finally bathe.

the oh-so-great feeling of the clean water cleansing the dirt left from the river.

we still had debriefing dammit.

'i wanna go home already.'

oh yea, congrats to Leon of Tazzy Devils for winning the best male camper!!

with all the energy and spirit contributed to this Orientation Camp 2006.

i can finally say i'm proud of SC camps.

but it'll soon be back to serious morning duties and commitment.

but let's forget all about it for now eh.

2006-06-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

halfway through the kbox session with J2EYS yesterday,

I suddenly felt like going back to Teck Whye Sec again.

to refresh and re-feel so many memories I had there once with them.

the classroom, the canteen..

but something struck me just a moment ago,

one of my worst nightmares happened,

we have all changed.

just when you didn't realize it,

it just struck you like a big stone hard against your head.

In the past,

our friends in our school were all we had,

but now, we possess so much.

After moving onto the different paths after secondary schools,

we experience different things,

we mix with different groups of people,

and we adapt to these surroundings very normally.

it's all very normal.

but what was I to do?

Hold them back and tie them down,

never growing up?

"Changes are Good.", people say..

and to keep holding onto the past will never help,

it might even hurt you.

It is very hard to let go.

but it is time.

For me to let go and look towards the future,

our future.

4A & 4B will always be missed,

but let's all work hard to accept our future.

still hope greatly that we can make time to keep contact in the future though.

[p.s. -- am i the only one feeling this way?]

2006-06-21T11:11:00.000+08:00

the holidays are approaching already!

getting slackier and slackier.

feel like going back to TWSS again.

like an alumni thing.

i miss the people.

******

am ready for my diet plan in July.

please give me your encouragement people!

aiming for 50kg. (presently at 55kg)

den i'll come back to school a confident woman.

(so even if i make fun of myself, i'll look nice. =X)

might even have to get a new set of uniform.

i wish.

HAHA.

so yea.

try not to ask me out in July.

i'm keeping away from fast foods.

exercise and fruits everyday.

*but if i don't make it.

pls don't laugh at me,

at least i tried eh.

=))

******

walking into a narrow path of doubts.

not knowing where it'll lead.

will the path just lead to empty hopes,

or will my desires be fulfilled.

2006-06-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

confirmed my doubts about myself.

there there jess.

now that you know,

it had better been time for you to do some changes about yourself.

you may be a happy who-cares-wadever person.

but there are times you have to be responsible.

put your foot down and be firm.

change that bad glitch in yourself. (i know glitch is for technical stuff.)

*don't worry. i just hope to change for the better. i'm not some sensitive chick.

******

saw Vkey, Ali, Doug, Weili, Faisal, and Singh in school today.

miss them lots.

going to SC without them is boring/meaningless/not the same..

remember the corner of the SC room where they always 'chilled',

with their guitars and crazy jokes that crack me up.

it seems so empty now.

finish up your attachment and come back to school already!

everyone's missing you.

******

i feel lost.

standing in the middle of these crossroads.

not knowing where to go.

which direction to take.

will i be happier if i took that path?

or do i have to take that other path because everyone else is telling me it's better for me?

but will i be happy down that road?

who has the foresight to see that a better me is down that road?

who has the right to pave that path for me?

it is me, isn't it?

shouldn't i have the right to decide?

2006-06-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

haha.

as you can see.

i'm very bored.

apologies to ppl who are thinking 'wth'.

i'm just doing smth to fill my time.

2006-06-14T12:42:00.000+08:00

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

2006-06-14T12:35:00.000+08:00

You Have Low Self Esteem 36% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail.
Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

How is Your Self Esteem?

2006-06-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.
You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.
And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.
You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

2006-06-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

You Are 68% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

2006-06-14T11:20:00.000+08:00

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have low extroversion.
You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.
A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.
You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

2006-06-14T11:13:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2006-06-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

Firstly,

i would like to apologize to Elaine and Gervas.

i think Gervas msg-ed me at around 1 plus last night,

and my father simply hates ppl to sms so late unless it's some emergency.

but yea,

it wasn't an emergency.

and so my father replied him, smth like ' ppl need to sleep coz' they gotta go to work and school tmr!'.

guess Gervas was shocked and apologised.

i den came home to find his msg 'too' polite and went to check the outbox.

i was simply insulted and humiliated.

how could my father do smth like that?!

i proceeded to call Gervas to apologise immediately.

for Elaine,

my father replied her somewhat rudely too,

but i know that Elaine will suspect the person wasn't me,

it just wasn't my type of writing.

but to think my father replied to them pretending to be me makes me feel so angry coz' he invaded my privacy.

who is he to think that he could do smth like that?

these ppl are my friends!

but if he were to reply them telling them he was my father, wouldn't it be .. i dunno what the word is... *sigh

when my father came home, i just couldn't find the mood to call him 'daddy',

he just totally lost my respect already.

so what if he's some big shot warrant officer?

does he think that he has the authority to do that?

it's not the fact that i was humiliated in front of my friends,

but that he simply didn't respect me,

to give me the benefit of the doubt everytime.

can i just give it all up.

2006-06-08T17:27:00.000+08:00

just woke up this morning with pain in my hand.

the place where i had my blood taken.

den i scared lah.

dunno wanna put plaster or not.

HAHA.

but ah. forget it.

later the wound take longer to heal.

everyone around me has been telling me that i look so pale.

like i'm gonna faint any second or smth.

but cannot help it mah,

had my blood donation the very same day my menstruation came.

so to simply put it,

i'm losing alot of blood.

i really wanted to donate blood mah.

so i thought that my menstruation wouldn't cause any side effects.

but yea.

according to my friends,

i look like a walking zombie.

gotta eat more of that iron pills they gave me.

******

oh yea.

today is shi ting's birthday.

so i'm over at her house all the way in pasir ris now.

bought her a OP t-shirt.

sk bought her a photo frame and put the photo of her and shi ting in.

plus a few hand-made little decorations. (very nice)

anyway.

Happy 18th Birthday Shi Ting!!

******

today a member from my Projects committee got terminated. (Najumah)

in front of the whole Student Council.

she was reprimanded and told to return her tie right there in the amphitheatre.

i couldn't believe it.

to think that the teacher is so damn heartless to terminate her in the middle of the whole Council.

ok.

even if she wasn't, and didn't want to give all her best in SC,

it just isn't humane to terminate her right there in front of everyone.

it really is bullshit.

this is what makes me feel so disappointed in SC.

to think that the teacher can still tell us that this is a lesson to be learnt among us.

i mean, have you ever thought about her feelings?

we're all flesh and blood filled with feelings.

i'm simply disappointed and demoralised.

this is only Student Council, and we're only students.

we know that you may be looking for only the best,

but she is from the new intake, shouldn't she be given time to open herself up?

shouldn't we as students, be given more chances?

i really dunno anymore.

[ it's not as if we're in the outside world - gimme a break. ]

2006-06-07T10:33:00.000+08:00

yeap yeap.

am here to update once again.

Just donated my blood yesterday,

while pumping onto a little cute soccer ball. (which was snatched away by LC)

not bad lah the experience.

but i don't think i'll wanna go for it a second time.

just wanted to try it out to see what donating blood was like.

now i've done it,

it's over.

[ just hope that my blood goes to someone who really needs it ]

[ i'll be really disappointed if it goes wasted ]

******

more responsibilities in class and SC.

still hoping to slim down,

and to find a good boyfriend.

and praying everyday for my family's happiness and health.

same old same old.

missing JEYS alot.

but i understand, we're all busy ppl.

to be able to see them twice or thrice a month is a blessing already.

SC is getting real boring.

with Viknesh, Ali, Douglas, Weili (is this the right spelling?), and Faisal all gone for their attachment.

all the 'men' in SC are gone.

and the girls are back to being the 'strong' ones.

which i'm getting real tired of.

******

into my 2nd year and really wishing to graduate soon and get into poly,

then graduate soon from poly and just slack?

yea right.

i wish.

2006-05-24T10:34:00.000+08:00

will be bringing JC students around the school today AGAIN.

I'm tired and stinky from S&W again.

oh yea.

i was so scared LC couldn't make it today. ( he's my partner)

coz' he wasn't feeling well.

i was like begging him to go home to rest then come back again.

HAHA.

so mean eh.

but he's really very good at interacting with the students.

den i can just stand there and listen.

HAHA.

anyway, hopefully he gets better so he can be his old cheeky self again.

******

i miss J2EYS !!

i wish for my father to get well soon !!

i wanna get a boyfriend !!

HAHA.

*crazy

from zy: mayb i could get u n LC together.
from jess: i dun think so. too cheeky..!! =X

2006-05-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

chatting with my primary school friend.

so happy!

able to keep in contact with primary school friends is such a 'xin fu' thing.

HAHA.

everytime i'm able to 'find' another one of my 'lost' primary school friends,

i'm jumping.

HAHA.

she was very pretty when she was young.

omg.

she changed alot.

hmm.. not very nice. =X

ok forget it.

******

omg.

bad news.

2 of my primary school friends has passed away for about 5 years already.

and i just found out.

i was even quite close to one of them.

omg.

they were both on their way to church.

and a bus hit them.

think it was a freak accident.

they even had to sew one of their faces up.

my primary school friends all had to attend their wake after PSLE.

they were all in shock.

like how much shock i am in now.

i was even quite bad to one of them before.

her name's Aasta.

i called her a lesbian.

coz' she kept trying to be so close to me.

den she kept buying things for me.

couldn't accept smth like that at that time.

guess i just wanna say sorry.

sorry for treating you so bad.

real sorry.. i was a meanie.

may God bless you in heaven.

take care.

[Aasta & Agnes]

2006-05-17T11:11:00.000+08:00

finishing school at 1 today.

just had s&w this morning.

so i'm stinking right now.

and i have to bring tampines JC students around my school later, ard 3.45.

and if there's a cute guy.

i'm so dead.

i stink.

and after the 'Learning Journey', i have a dialogue session with the SC.

i'm tired, stinky, and not feeling happy at all.

=((

[was supposedly posted on 16th May. hee!]

2006-05-11T13:42:00.000+08:00

over at shuo ke's house at the moment.

so i can finally blog!

HAHA.

k.

alot has happened over this past 2 week.

school re-opened.

and after this one month holiday,

all the SC ppl suddenly feel so distant.

getting along better with LC already.

even had a couple of 'fun' arguments.

Ivan kinda changed?

maybe he's trying to keep his distance.

HAHA.

if you dunno who the hell they are,

forget it.

******

just came back from Lot 1 where I met my brother and his gang of friends.

they were all observing me,

me and my legs.

no idea man.

my brother even came over and told me to take off my specs for further observation.

but got rejected. aww.

horny secondary school boys full of raging hormones.

******

lastly,

"where are the ones we wanna fall in love with?"

is my recent topic with shuo ke.

2006-05-10T10:36:00.000+08:00

i have not been updating.

i know.

apologies to all, but i may not be able to blog as often as i used too coz' my computer at home is down with a virus and moving like a snail.

and the only opportunity i get to blog is at school.

and i don't get to use the computer lab everyday.

so yea.

guess if you wanna hear more stuff about me, it'd have to be from shuo ke.

and i know how 'entertaining' i am in her blog.

HAHA.

yea.

catch more stupid stories about me in her blog soon.

i'm too embarrassed to even wanna talk about it.

2006-05-03T10:53:00.000+08:00

a very very sneaky weekend.

sneaked out for Jolyn's birthday on Saturday.

HAHA.

but i had fun!!

sneaked out again on Sunday for Shuang's and Hui's birthday bbq.

got lectured for both days.

lecture for jolyn's birthday wasn't so bad.

stood there for about 10 mins?

Shuang's and Hui's one was kinda bad.

got locked out of the house.

HAHA.

wth right.

see how strict my parents are already?

so i got locked out for 15mins?

den got scolded again~

i'm such a brat eh~

My parents were so angry coz' of the work incident.

so it all rolled up into a big big ball of anger.

yea.

but if you were parents,

wouldn't i be a very disappointing child?

grounded for 3 months and still sneaking out like nobody's business.

i don't wish for it to be like that too.

but don't you find my parents just too much.

It's the holidays for Goodness sake!

gimme a break.

comments are open to all if you wanna comment on anything.

dun worry.

i'm very open to comments.

=)

2006-04-28T12:43:00.000+08:00

last night,

i couldn't sleep at all.

i was too excited.

today would be my last day of work.

and the money would soon be rolling in.

=DD

----

father fetched me to work in the morning.

and i just felt that today would turn out to be a good day for me.

you know that feeling?

took a couple of photos in the office for my presentation.

and went back to work.

******

frankly,

i'm feeling very tired.

it has just been study, work, and back to study again.

i want a break.

but who's willing to give me one?

like right after the attachment,

i have to get ready my report and presentation.

and then it's back to school to study.

and don't forget the SC commitments.

i even have to make a trip to Tampines ITE tmr for a 'Feng Shan Forum'.

and i'm left with 2 days to prepare my report?!

i think i'm just gonna have to take my time on the report.

i just wanna relax, have fun and go crazy,

with no reponsibilities nudging at my back everytime.

i'm still young.

give me some freedom to enjoy my youth when i can,

please?

2006-04-27T16:58:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA!

this is hilarious~!

my colleague, Charmaine.

bought Apple Strudels for us to eat.

Yum yum.

ate 2 pieces.

snort*

now they're throwing the leftover 2 pieces of the apple strudel to the finance dept.

and they're all like 'dun want lah~.. so sinful. sure fat one.'

so the apple strudels are being thrown back and forth the Human Relations Dept. and the Finance Dept.

HAHA.

i'll miss this office man.

the people are so warm.

although work means work,

they are very nice people overall.

will cherish this 3 weeks in SIM.

[- Charmaine - Wee Lin - Jenny -]

2006-04-27T10:59:00.000+08:00

was just browsing through Sherwin's blog on msn. ( SC Friend, he just graduated.)

den i found out that i'll miss him a lot.

although he was the really cheeky and too-straightforward kind of person that some ppl can't tahan.

he was really nice to have around.

it just brightens everyone's really dull morning.

but he won't be the only one i'll be missing.

the SC seniors who have graduated will all be missed greatly.

they were the ones who lead you slowly into fitting in.

and the ones who told you stories about the past-SC.

the ones who taught us the many many skills you need in SC.

and the ones who taught me that you can question the ex-co's if something seems unreasonable.

---

it is now our turn to leave an impact on the juniors.

to lead and guide them.

and to brighten their mornings.

i just wanna say a big thank you to the seniors,

no matter whether i hated them or loved them.

******

1 more day of work !!

=DD

2006-04-26T13:24:00.000+08:00

just finished lunch at Ngee Ann Poly.

A real Pig today.

Had Fish & Chips and Almond & Longan Ice Kachang dessert thing.

Hee.

Don't usually go for desserts.

Fat Liao Arh!!

******

Wow.

i just found out that Colin & Kero are getting real popular.

who knows when their news will come up in the newspaper.

very soon i guess.

HAHA.

den it lead me into thinking that maybe they aren't really gays?

that they're just seeking attention.

you know.

like that guy, wad's his name??

the one that stripped in front of Fann Wong guy.

yea.

They just wanna be famous??

den when they are.. they break up and find chio bu's??

HAHA.

i have no idea.

i'm thinking too much.

i'm totally contradicting with what i said yesterday.

=/

******

2 more days of work!!!

Money Money Money~

Come to Mommy~.. ( yucks..?)

******

oh yea.

finished watching another korean drama!

19 Year Old Sister-In-Law.

Love It!

[ don't hate me coz' i'm a korean drama lover. =X ]

2006-04-25T14:20:00.000+08:00

was just reading through a gay couple's blog. (intro-ed to me by wei quan.)

www.colinandkero.blogspot.com

it might seem a little disgusting at first,

but once you continue reading deeper into it.

you find that they just seem like any other normal couples.

they love each other dearly.

and willing to go through all oppositions against them together.

although they have had sex before,

it doens't seem like such a big deal anymore.

we can have sex,

why not them?

they have their needs too.

they just desire a different sex from the majority of the population.

and they are so strong, to be able to open up to the world and show that they're gay.

not like the other half, who hides.

for me, they are accepted.

2006-04-24T09:49:00.000+08:00

wei quan's not here to accompany me at work to chat..

i'm sad and bored. =(

HAHA.

People!

School's re-opening today!!

Jiayou!!

Study Hard!!

Go! Go!

2006-04-24T09:34:00.000+08:00

i almost had my hair dyed brown over the weekend.

i was so happy my mother finally allowed me to dye my hair.

but i forgot school would be re-opening soon.

and i'm a student councillor.

damn it.

i want to dye my hair!! =((

******

new hair cut.

legs shaved. =X

nails polished.

nice dress.

nice shoes.

big earrings.

no makeup yet. =(

and shimmery powder. ( remember ying jia?? from prom night. )

all ready for dinner at Raffles tonight.

Happy!~

******

Alot for me to be happy about this week.

Mother's Birthday!

Jolyn's Birthday!

Last week of work!! WhoOpeE!!

All proper for dinner at Raffles tonight.

I'm feeling good.

( who knows whether I'm glowing. )

=P

2006-04-21T16:09:00.000+08:00

Whew!

finally some time to blog.

just finished LOTS of data entry in the morning.

went back to more filing.

but filing felt much better than the data entry.

it was just too much lah.

and it was giving me paper cuts!

i hate paper cuts.

now my hand's ugly.

HAHA. XD

******

went to Holland V to eat Laksa for lunch.

we only get to eat with spoons!

isn't that wierd.

but all the noodles were just the right size so you could pick them up.

let me try introducing the Laksa to you.

' Come come! Try the Katong Laksa in Holland V! It's real Special, coz' we only eat the Laksa with Spoons! Now isn't that smth refreshing?! Come COME!! '

okay, stop it jess.

you're just proving to ppl that you're a 'Genuine suspicious article'.

and they'll fight each other for you just to get that $10 reward from the science centre.

tsk tsk.

[ one real good advantage, no matter where we go to eat, my colleagues are the ones paying the cab fare.

i'm just sitting there enjoying the 2 of them fighting over who should pay the cab fare. ]

=X

2006-04-20T16:06:00.000+08:00

was listening to my horoscope on 93.3FM yesterday evening.

it said that luck for everything today would suck.

and there wasn't a single good factor in my horoscope.

well.

i got paper-cut 2 times today.

is that counted as bad luck??

hopefully other than that, nothing else happens.

God Bless Me!!

haha.. so timid only.

2006-04-20T10:47:00.000+08:00

i wrote that i sat in front of the Director of Finance's Office right?

yeap.

k.

let's start shooting him.

******

he talks so loud.

and everything that comes out of his mouth is crap.

serious.

he talks on the phone more than half the time with who-cares and and keeps laughing.

and his crap is all about 'have-you-read-this-book' shit. ( blah blah blah. )

and he talks as if he's such a big deal.

den when his mouth is all dried up, he goes out to eat.

he keeps calling the staff to his office to talk and laugh.

den ask them about whether they've finished their work as the deadline is nearing.

but how can they finish when you keep calling them to go to your office and crap?

Please Lor.

all your staff have tons of work to do.

wake up your idea.

******

y'll must be wondering what he did to me to deserve this shit right?

well. he did nothing.

i just don't like him.

too bad.

=X

[ i don't even wanna waste my energy to find out his name. ]

2006-04-19T09:21:00.000+08:00

my day is up to me whether i want it to be good or bad.

SO..

to make my day better today.

i bought my little hp-radio thingy.

i'm listening to 93.3FM at the moment.

feeling happy. ( or is it satisfied? )

it doesn't seem so quiet and boring anymore.

'always look on the bright side of life~.. lala~'

******

was browsing through Jue Tong's multiply account just now.

and saw the pics of Jun Hong's birthday party by the beach.

and i just feel like going to Sentosa so much now.

maybe I'll ask J2EYS to go this weekend or smth.

don't care about the 3 months-grounded thing le lah!

sianz-anation.

******

omg.

it's playing 'xiao zhu's' shake-it-mama-shake-it song at the moment.

HAHA! ( don't crack your heads, only J2EYS will geddit. )

=X

2006-04-18T17:06:00.000+08:00

I'm suddenly so sick of the computer and papers.

staring at the screen for so long gives me a headache.

I can't take it anymore.

plus the fact that the fonts on the paper are damn small, and the info on the computer screen is squeezed together so tight.

and the blurry effects are making me slow down.

when can i finish this?

who can take this?

I'm dying.

2006-04-18T13:35:00.000+08:00

back from Bukit Timah Plaza for lunch.

went with 2 of my colleagues.

btw, i only have 3 colleagues. ( for your info. )

HAHA.

den went 'shopping' in NTUC. ( of all places. )

bought nothing.

went to Poh Kim CD shop.

one of my colleagues bought a Jang Nara CD.

if y'll dunno who she is, she's just another korean singer/actress.

My supervisor, Jenny, was really cute. ( she's 34! )

HAHA.

to think that i was kinda afraid of her at first.

she is still playful at heart.

and all crazy and acting cute.

HAHA.

Charmaine is away for the week.

i think she went to Beijing.

missing her bubbly character.

another 1 week and 3 days to go.

Jiayou Jiayou!! ( add oil. )

[ p.s i'm kinda scared that i won't be getting $40 a day. no one is taking notice of what time i come in and what time i leave. ]

[ It just feels wrong. you know. ]

2006-04-17T12:30:00.000+08:00

It's lunch break again!

just finished my 'cai fan'.

today hungry sia.

didn't eat breakfast then rush out already.

HEE.

pig.

today was boring.

came in around at ard 8.25.

not late! ( by 5 mins. =/ )

almost couldn't make it.

my tummy was real upset this morning AGAIN.

i seriously have no idea what's up with my stomache.

maybe i have stomach cancer or smth. [CHOY!]

but my stomach really gives me a lot of problems.

i hate stomachache's.

it's real shitty.

******

the work today.

oh yea.

came in at 8.25 right.

the supervisor told me to sit at my cubicle and wait for their instructions. ( for one whole hour! )

den she gave me filing.

which i finished within 10 mins. ( there wasn't a lot. )

she den told me to go back to my cubicle and wait again.

and i waited for another 1 and 1/2 hours.

that's crazy lah.

seriously wasting my time here.

MUST GET AN MP3 ! !

i'll die of boredom here sooner or later.

2006-04-16T14:36:00.000+08:00

Natalie & Nat King Cole - When I Fall In Love

going to work tmr again.

sianz.

just don't feel like seeing their faces.

HAHA.

i'm sure some of y'll will understand.

smth like going to school.

but at least you have friends there.

******

i miss J2EYS.

and Shuo Ke.

and many many of my friends.

I'm like confined to the house lah.

under some kind of house arrest.

sickening.

when will my prince charming come in his white horse,

slay the mighty dragon, [ father ] =X

sweep me off my feet and bring me far away from this place?

2006-04-15T13:19:00.000+08:00

hmm.

wad shall i write about today?

it'd be nice if ppl gave me topics to write it eh?

like a forum kinda thing.

if not, sometimes really no idea what to write de leh..

******

read a book yesterday.

'Ella Enchanted'

a fairy tale kinda book.

sometimes, it's really nice to be able to read these books.

it brings you far away from reality.

the cold, harsh reality.

which i just realized after i started working at SIM.

the number of ppl they have to reject a day.

and the many high expectations they expect of an employee.

i thought it would be nice working in such an environment at first.

but after looking at a few hundred applications and interviews, the comments they give to the interviewees.

it's harsh.

i really cannot imagine putting myself out into this world.

it must be really tiring, this dog-eat-dog world.

struggling so hard just to able to survive.

and i'm not even talking about being successful.

but we can't ever stay the same way we are now can we?

we have to move on.

face the obstacles.

grow up.

but i'm really scared to take that step out.

can i not do it?

sometimes,

being able to stay in the well forever like the frog,

who is only able to see that small part of the world.

won't it be happier?

we may be ignorant to a lot.

but won't our lives be so much simpler and easier?

i like a simple life.

i don't ask for much.

but will i be allowed to do so, in this cruel world?

2006-04-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

for those who's interested to know what punishment i recieved.

i had to listen to my father lecture me for a whole hour.

den got grounded for 3 months.

not allowed to go out for 3 whole months.

cannot make it one lor.

HAHA.

be prepared for more sneaky actions coming up in the near future.

stay updated by visiting my blog regularly.

thank you to all loyal fans for the support!

=X

2006-04-14T14:29:00.000+08:00

slept real early yesterday.

maybe coz' of all the thinking.

plus all that filing.

can die sia!

haha.

k.

kinda scared of giving the colleagues a bad impression of me.

but heck lah!

2 more weeks and i'm outta there.

but i promise to work harder for the next 2 weeks.

******

oh yea.

did anyone read the home section on today's papers?

there was this small article about IKEA giving out about 3000 free pillows on the MRT trains yesterday morning.

I was on the train!

and i took 2 with me.

HEE.

auntie sia~

i hid it in my small cupboard in the office.

HAHA.

but it was a really funny situation lah~

i entered the train at Pasir Ris Mrt station

and the whole train was filled with pillows.

if you wanted to take a seat.

you had to take the pillows as they were placed on every seat.

den ppl in pyjamas started strolling up and down the train.

everyone who entered the 'pillow train' had many different expressions.

there were ppl with wth-is-happening faces,

and ppl who started calling their friends and families to tell them,

and ppl who just kept giggling, ( i was one of them )

and ppl who were shaking their heads.

i liked watching their every expression.

it just made me wanna giggle more. [wierdo]

but the pillows were swept away real fast.

at around 6/7 stations, all the pillows were gone.

and ppl who entered the train later on were just looking at me with that why-is-she-bringing-a-pillow-outside expressions.

( coz' most ppl would be alighting around city hall and orchard. )

( and i was one of the few ppl left with pillows on the train. )

pai seh sia.

had no choice but to cab home.

=P

2006-04-13T12:52:00.000+08:00

i met with a real perverted uncle yesterday.

you know when you enter the entrance of the chalet.

and you have to walk through the ez-link- like machines?

you have to chop that illuminous stamp on your hand.

yea.

when we were going back to our room.

we started giggling and playing with the stamps.

then the malay security uncle. ( either in his 40s or 50s )

came over and slightly pinched my skin where the stamp was.

k fine.

maybe he was just playing around too.

ying jia was standing behind me, with the rest behind her.

i asked her to put her hand at that light next.

the malay security uncle then came closer and laughed together with us.

and in the next second.

he came so close to me his p***s was pushing against my hip.

i immediately pushed him and walked away, asking the rest to hurry back to the room too.

omg.

i really wished i could have just grabbed his balls and yanked them right off him.

a**hole.

see whether you'd still be able to push 'it' into other ppl.

2006-04-13T12:30:00.000+08:00

k.

i'm sad.

i skipped work for one day yesterday coz of the chalet.

and i admit that it was wrong.

i wanted to be able to spend one whole day and stay up late with J2EYS.

i had fun. ( even though the damn Escape and bowling centre wasn't open. )

i left a msg for Charmaine and told her i wasn't feeling well.

yea.

when i came for work this morning.

my father msged me and 'ordered' me to call him straightaway.

dead shit.

called him.

the contents are smth like, no more going out with your friends, dissapointed in you, come home straight after work kinda thing.

yea.

the company called him this morning and asked him whether i was going to work today as i was sick. ( all coz i was just a little late. )

anyway, they made a mistake.

they wanted to call me.

but dialled my father instead.

how worse can my fate be.

yea den my father found out i didn't go to work.

and the company found out i was at a chalet.

whoopee!

let's see how far jess can go in hell!

******

both parties expressed great disappointment in me.

and i'm so dead when i go home.

i seriously don't feel like going home.

just wished there was another place i could go.

but that would just mean that i'm running.

running away from my mistakes.

i might just stall a little bit, but i won't run away. ( thinking of BP Plaza )

i cried a little just now. ( hopefully no one saw. )

but i'm fine now.

i get much stronger after i am able to face it and let it go.

gotta bring that atd up against my father.

i will never wanna be weak in front of my father.

that's my only defense against him.

and if my mother can't understand, there's nothing i can do either.

2006-04-11T12:51:00.000+08:00

oh!

i forgot to write about monday.

hee.

yeap.

woke up at 6 to get ready for work. (work starts at 8.30 )

i'm ready i'm ready..

but my monthly sickness came.

and it totally destroyed my much awaited first day of work.

so i was in pain and felt like vomiting..and all that.

til about 8?

yea.

can't make it for work.

left a msg for the supervisor.

burnt my hand. ( don't wanna talk about it )

went back to sleep.

woke up at about 9.

feeling much better already.

ah heck.

just go to work lor.

better late than never.

flagged a taxi for 1 hour.

that's real stupid.

every single darn taxi is either hired or on call.

oh. there were a few times the ppl who came later than me snatched the empty ones.

i just felt like punching them.

may you all go to hell.

just wanted to give up, go home and continue sleeping.

didn't know where the heck i got the determination to wait for a full hour under the hot sun.

then one finally came.

and i just kept complaining to the taxi uncle about all the god-dammit taxis.

he just kept laughing.

well, got to work finally.

and started on filing.

filing filing filing..

the end.

2006-04-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

having my lunch break now.

i'm working for this Human Relations Department.

they only have 4 employees. (excluding me)

and they're all females.

it's nice.

especially this lady, Charmaine.

she's real bubbly.

i like her.

----------------

my work place.

i have my own cubicle!

whoo-hoo!

but it's right in front of the finance director's office.

kinda restricted.

but he went out for the moment.

lalala~

been doing LOTS of filing.

getting real sick of it.

one thing good about this job.

it's not very stressful.

the job doesn't ask for much.

and it doesn't have ppl breathing down your neck every second. (like those movies where the boss pops up from nowhere)

but everything's so confidential.

overall, it's not bad.

i don't hate it.

and the money's good.

=/

my only motivation.

CHALET!!

can't wait to get off from work and rush over.

fun fun fun!!

hopefully i don't get too tired and can't wake up for work.

FUN FUN FUN!!!